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Does anyone else get really frustrated when people say "they're your family members! you should love them!" I seriously don't get this. Sharing blood with me doesn't mean i'll love you. Maybe i'll be more inclined? But seriously, how do you expect me to love the cousins I almost never see or talk to? Or my grandmother whom i've never met before? Or my other grandparents i have only had bad encounters with? I get it, we're related. But I also have no control over who i like and love and quite frankly, if I barely know you, if I do know you but don't like you as a person, do you seriously think that just because we share blood I'll love you??

Maybe I'm wrong. Feel free to (politely) explain why, I'm open to different views, perhaps I've been a little close minded and never realised

Go the fuc* to work!!!

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The day I give up noteful will be the day I either lose my life or get a life.

the things i would do for an opponent with the balls to actually confront me to my face when im actually conscious...

its hard being seen as intimidating. it just aint easy not being a pus**

i felt myself being raped, i was screaming and trying to crawl away but i couldn't and he grabbed me and raped me. i woke up in my bed, i was drenched in sweat, i couldn't hardly breathe. nothing had happened to me, but my bed was totally undone. it took me an hour of sitting in my easy chair to calm down. i know i wasn't raped, but it was so real, only the fact that i am in home tells me it was a bad dream.

Nice jeans... :slight_smile:

Is online dating for losers? Follow up question- is joining an online dating site just for sex gross? Im not sure which option im going to follow but im thinking of one or the other. Im a female if it matters.

HAHAHAHAHAHHHHAHA

I don’t know much, but I know you learn a lot about yourself when you spend hours drinking and sniffing coke in a Macanese speakeasy and your next memory is standing naked over an aging British man screaming “piss on me! Piss on me now!”

i am such a better person than you lot. i hope youre taking notes because youll learn a lot and hopefully make some progress

You guys remember that show, Catch a Predator? Cops are still doing those type of busts but not televised. Its a shame really, I loved watching the pedos getting busted.

i need a hug.

I am 30yo female, and stay at home mom. I got together with a group of other stay at home moms in our neighborhood. We have a chat network for our group. There are eight other women in my group. One of the moms is 26, she is the youngest in our group. I have fallen in love with her. I am overprotective of her and have taken her under my wing. This is her first baby. I want to kiss her so bad. To hug her so bad. I want to caress her and hold her. I haven't told her of my true feelings for her. I tell her how much she means to me and that I love her, she just doesn't know that Iove her in the romantic sense. I dream of waking up with her, tending to our babies, getting my five year old ready for school. I can't break these feelings for her. I wish I could just come out and tell her how I feel.

i kinda like how im so hot blooded and i think i would do so well in super cold climates but in the mornings usually i cant use my phone as my phone wont respond to how crazy sweaty i am after laying in a blanket all night. pretty cool tho regardless. surfed viccy winter in a 1mm wettie lol tho prob wouldnt do that on purpose again. maybe thats why i have such a fire in my belly. nord 4 lyf

I didn’t really know it was hers so I was tryna look without my parents noticing but I couldn’t tell so I went in my apartment § unpacked . then I went outside § looked again § the mustang was gone , so I texted her “ wya “ .. she replied “ headed to flash foods “ . so I asked her was she just over here § she responded “ ya Nap was using my laptop “ ... now that right then was when I realized that we would not last . I knew right then that the 11 months I spent with this girl would not reach a year . now that was strange to me for many reasons , idk if it’s just me trippin or if Im thinking right : okay 1.when we stopped fw each other last semester I was told she was fw a basketball player 2. I know who Nap was § I know what he drives § idk if my memory is off bc of how mad I was that day or what but I don’t think his car was even over there 3. I didn’t know she was still fw the basketball players bc I told her not to § as far as I knew then , she wasn’t . 4. if this mf asked HER to used HER laptop , then why the fuc* are yu bringing it atw from the dorms to him when he has his own car to go get it from her . § 5. why didn’t she just tell me that she was doin that so I would know , it’s only logical , the fact that she didn’t made me feel like she was hiding shit .. so those 5 things did not add up to me at all . it didn’t make sense .. I basically told her that we didn’t have to fw each other anymore , she didn’t even respond . 3 hours later I texted her again § told her I was doin everything I could for her , I was giving this my all , so what was I doin wrong ? I just couldn’t understand what happened .. she didn’t even respond to that neither . she had my book that I needed for one of my classes so I texted her before that I was gone come pick it up tmw .. I knew she worked tmw but I didn’t know what time . I was too mad at her to even text her bc she wasn’t responding to nun of my shit so I asked her best friend did she know what time she got off . she told me § I told her to tell her that I would be coming by to pick it up when she got off bc she wasn’t responded to me . her friend said okay . when she got off she finally responding to my messages saying that she would bring the book over later when she got off bc she would be goin home later § she also responded to the last message I sent her asking what happened to us with just a basic “ idk don’t know “ .. the shit hurt me so bad I didn’t wanna even respond to nothing . about an hour later I gave in § texted her “ how yu don’t know ? if yu wanted to fw another nigga yu could’ve just lmk so I could’ve left yu alone “ § she responded “ do yu want me to to bring yu your book or jus leave it with N ? “ I told her to just bring it .. I couldn’t believe how she was acting .. it was like she didn’t give af about what we had anymore .. the shit was breaking my heart but I just figured her bringing the book to my spot would give us an opportunity to talk about shit .. so I waited hours for her to come then I finally texted her asking when was she bringing the book . she responded idk ima just leave it with N bc ion like bein rushed .. the shit was making me mad but breaking my heart at the same time bc she ain’t give af about us anymore .. I really almost couldn’t take the pain .. this was the same girl that was on her knees begging me to keep fw her in the middle of the parking lot at the dorms last semester . the same girl that would try to fight me whenever I tried to cut her off .. the same girl who was begging me to let her suck my dic* so I wouldn’t leave her .. the same girl that quit her job in the middle of her shift to come talk to me so I wouldn’t leave her . the same girl that tried to pay me money so I wouldn’t leave her ... for the life of me I just could not understand why was she acting like this .. like what we had was special , I didn’t want to end shit just bc I thought somethin I wanted an explanation just to lmk if I was right or wrong but I couldn’t eve

“true strength is withstanding hardship and continuing on through adversity, it’s not how much hardship you can inflict on someone else”

part 3 -> wanted an explanation just to lmk if I was right or wrong but I couldn’t even get that .. ima go to my grave not knowing whether my assumptions was correct or not about what she was doin over there at those apartments bc she never would explain it to me . we texted that night for a few hours § I was pouring my heart out to her .. it was like she was just cold hearted no matter what I said it just couldn’t be enough . all I wanted to know was what happened .. all we done been thru , all the long nights , all the tears , all the secrets , all the plans we had for the future .. all of it ain’t worth shit . she didn’t respond to my last message that I sent § I gave her a chance atw TIL the next day , then I blocked her number .. everything is so weird this time bc usually she blocks me quick but she haven’t blocked me yet .. I feel like if she really wanted to reach out she done had so many chances , so many opportunities § she haven’t took them .. I just came to the conclusion that she was probably at the apartments fuc*** the basketball player she was fw before me , or even fuc*** the nigga who she claim was using her laptop or hell she probably was over there fuc*** the whole team .. I will never know .. I even was so desperate that I asked people in my snap for his snap but nobody seemed to have it .. I’m sure sumbody does but I done finally reached the point where I don’t even give af about the situation anymore .. I’m not even worried about reaching out to her friend for the book , that’s just my way of showin them that I done give af about shit anymore .. I doubt she gave the book to her friend today anyway bc idk if she came back to the dorms but I do know that her best friend got knocked tf out today by sum gay nigga .. my last text I was gone send her was gone be “ this shit will come back on yu :v_tone3:” but I realized it’s not even worth it , but lo § behold it’s starting to come back on her bc her best friend already got knocked out the day after . if she really is fw the basketball player then her heart will be broke bc the basketball players ain’t shit , § knowing how crazy she is then she’ll try to fight him § he’ll probably knock her fuc*** ass out unlike me .. when she pulled that crazy shit all I would do is laugh § hold her down til she’s calm . she won’t ever in her life fw another nigga like me § I won’t ever in my life fw another bitch like her .. i feel like God is punishing me for taking a good girl like her for granted last year .. if I wouldn’t have pushed her away the 1st time our whole life would’ve been different.. I even told her that last night while we was texting . I told her “ I done had a lot of regrets my whole life , but taking a good girl like yu for granted was my biggest one “ § all she could say to that shit was “ I don’t know what to say “ ... that shit had me so mad . like cmon I’m pouring my fuc*** heart out to yu , I’m literally doin everything but getting down on my fuc*** knees § begging yu when I shouldn’t even have to . she the one that should’ve been explaining to me .. ig she wanted to act like how I was acting the whole time we were fuc*** with each other , just nonchalant to everything . I just cannot believe it .. my whole world revolved around this girl . she was my life . she was my whole heart .. she was the exact reason why I never ever wanted to be in love with someone bc love hurts .. it hurts so bad . I can’t get her off my mind no matter how hard I try .. I never ever been the person to be emotional , I probably only ever cried 1 other time at a funeral but I can’t help but to cry thinking about all the things we did & how much she means to me .. § no one would ever know . it’s like everything is so dull in my life without her .. everything . I just keep thinking that life is pointless without her in it .. she was that special to me . ig it’s karma bc I made her feel the same way last semester when I was the only person she had left .. now it’s the othe

she was the girl of my dreams .. everything I ever wanted in a girl she was that . she looked good , fat ass , pretty pus** , wet pus** , tight pus** , head game fye , freaky asf , she could cook , do hair , drive , even had her own car , had her own job , was smart § very independ .. can’t even lie she was a dime piece .i done heard before that men usually go after women that reminds them of their mother , always thought that shit was bogus until I was fw her for a while then realized that in sum ways she did remind of my momma bc how she acted sumtimes .. it was kinda weird but bc of that I really thought we was meant to be .. I done did more shit with this girl than any girl in my life . in a way it’s like she took my virginity . not sexually ofc , but I guess yu can say my emotional virginity .. I had never been in love with a girl before , never really even loved a girl before .i done had feelings for a lot of bitches but I wouldn’t necessarily call it love , but with her it was definitely love . I mean all the shit I done did with this girl is crazy .. she know my favorite thing in the world is head § she would do it anywhere without me even asking .. she done did it in the parking lot at Walmart , she did it while I was driving , she did it in the hallway at the dorms , she did it while we were waiting for her dad , she even did it at the movies .. we even fuc*** in the movies .. she was the first girl that I ever came in her mouth . she didn’t know but my whole world revolved around her .. I couldn’t stop thinking about her , § the weird thing is we never even was in a relationship.. what we had didn’t have a title on it .. we just fuc*** with each other § we were loyal to each other , at least that’s what I thought ..I never really trusted her . I’m a very observant person § I noticed every little detail whenever we were together .. I noticed that she always put her phone face down . I also noticed that she kept her phone on do not disturb . her phone always stayed on silent .. the only person who’s texts § calls went thru were her best friend N .. it seemed suspicious to me but to prevent any argument I just gave her the benefit of doubt .. I noticed that closer to the end of us fw each other she was falling away from me .. I was doin everything I could to bring her back , but I’m not a very romantic person so I couldn’t do it .. but I feel like if she really loved me then she would see that I was trying .. I would tell her that she was beautiful almost every day . I would give her compliments , ask her did she want anything or any massages . she would turn everything down .. I would tell her that I loved her almost every day . I should’ve noticed the signs .. the night we stopped fw each other I told her that it was starting to feel like that we were falling apart § that I couldn’t lose her bc I needed her .. I never ever told anybody in my life that I needed them but I did tell her that night bc I really meant it .. she insisted that everything was good between us § gave reasons how § I realized that maybe I was just tripping . she was right . that alone helped me sleep good that night .. the next day I was otw back my apartment . I was driving § my mom § dad were riding with me then she started blowing up my phone . then she called me . I seen it but I didn’t wanna answer bc I didn’t want my parents in my business but as soon as we got to a gas station I got out § called her right back . apparently she wanted me to see a movie with her but I wasn’t responding so she texted her friend § asked her instead § she said yes before I could call her . I told her that she should cancel with her friend § go with me instead but she said nope § that shit kinda hurted me but I joked around about It § we hung up . so about an hour later I pulled up to my apartment § noticed a mustang over at the basketball players’ apartments behind me . she drive a mustang . I didn’t really know it was hers so I was tryna look without my paren

smoking is killing me...I be been smoking non stop since 1996, like a chain smoker sometimes really. I smoke at least two packs a day. Often more like three if I’m being honest ... cigarettes are killing me and I hate that I’m addicted but I can’t quit and maybe deep down so don’t want to quit. They are too much a part of me and who I am. I actually first tried cigarettes when I was just 9, but didn’t start smoking more often till I was 11-12. By the time I was 14 I was hopelessly addicted

Cigarettes have really started taking a toll on my body in the last few years. I’m only in my mid-late thirties. I started noticing bad effects like shortness of breath by age 25... I start wheezing and coughing anytime I take the stairs ... then I started losing my teeth at 29..

You’d think after I was hospitalized at age 32 for breathing problems and alcohol poisoning I would have tried to quit smoking two to three packs a day

I got on a health kick that next year - low carb, more salads and less meat and friends food and less bread and sugar etc - tried less alcohol too - only lasted a little while- started exercising every day! - I got skinny and people started complimenting me! But I was always smoking still! Always the girl constantly Sucking down cigarettes outside the gym !

I’ve been looki. Good and feeling healthier for 4 years now - kept most of their weight off - stayed skinny! ... I just kept on smoking though

But in the past 6-7 months my health has really taken a serious downturn - like severe shortness of breath, chest pains, cold numb hands, and a wracking deep smokers cough that is way worse than it’s been the past decade or so - it’s like so got sick with pneumonia this winter and I’m not getting better!

I’m really worried!

My job doesn’t give insurance and the doctor bills are too high to go to the doctor unless it’s bad so I’m trying to not worry about it

I’m just worried because I have a 12 year old daughter and I’m all she’s got!

I know she hates my constant smoking in the house and in the car - she complains her clothes smell like cigarettes all the time, but I can’t help it! I figure eventually she’ll probably start smoking like I did at that age and stop complaining about it - I can’t really stop her if she wants to start - how could I? But that’s terrible I know and I don’t really want her to do that - in fact I already tell her how much I regret smoking

I just never thought I’d start feeling serious health effects by age 36

I know I should quit but I just can’t imagine life without cigarettes

What can I do? Will I be ok?