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How do people who are confused deal with the reality of a very confusing world? And how do you find you're self in a world you feel like you don't belong in? Because I would like to understand why? Because everything mostly seems pointless to me. And I feel confused and I feel like I don't belong here and it feels like agony but more of social Norm type of agony where you can't seem to find a place you truly belong in and you don't feel accepted. Well thats how I feel about myself and my social anxiety and anxiety as a total Misfit who is not cut of from a normal life. I feel awkward and out-of-place.

is it rude that i write my friends worst and best qualitys in my journal ?

need answers?

I need advice with how to deal with extreme feelings of inadequacy and the potential borderline personality disorder and extreme anxiety? I understand I have avoidant tendencies and I have an extreme fear of abandonment and I am well guarded and have a really hard time opening up to people emotionally when it comes to dating and romantic relationships and I have a I have the extreme phobias of Philophobia and Koinophobia and I can't people taking control of me and opposing their will on me. I'm also happy to deal with the fallout of emotional neglect from both by parents and how I want to love them both but they hurt me bad with their emotional neglect mostly mother who I believe has Munchausen by proxy and I believe she brainwash me into believing I was mentally retarded and she premeditated she wanted me on disability since I was age of seven and I have been disability for attention deficit disorder since 2011/2012 and I am now still on disability now that I am 31 year old female and I got on disability because I didnt want to be homeless and I struggle really bad with interviews and how they make me really bad anxiety. I also feel like I'm not cut out to live a normal life. I feel like a totally Misfit who feels like she does not belong. And I feel horribl about myself and I feel highly unmotivate and deeply depressed.

Back when i was 13(female), i got a kindle for christmas. obviously being that age, i was going through some changes and i got intrested in mature content . it was pretty much only soft core literature (the other stuff was too much for me) , but when my aunt found out. she took it upon her self to tell everyone else in the family about it, publicly shame me for it by making me read it outloud at a resturant we went to, and the rest of my family joined her in making me miserable for months. they would make jokes about that hit at my now broken mental state and call me vile. i felt so outcasted and broken that i still find myself crying sometimes whenever i think about it. it still hurts so much that the people who are supposed to be here to help me through the hard times decided that they wanted to belittle me and tell me my feelings were unnatural. I became suicidal and had a failed attempt with pills a couple months later. i just want to know what people think of this. i havent had a child myself so i cant tell whether this is ok or not

Yes I'm a male and over 22 years old, but watching what I did last sunday embarrassed me a lot. I was driving around on gravel country roads, while stopped to piss, I watched a big red and white bull try to mount a horse a little smaller than he was.
The horse moved away, but a few seconds later he tried again, this time he mounted and the horse started moving away again. When he slid off, the horse truned sidways and the horse was a mare, and it was plain by the way she was standing that the bull had penitrated her, why did that embarrass me?

I like looking up girls skirts and dresses and also why do girls wear black shorts under their skirts and dresses :((

How do i kill my lazyness?

im confused ab something... so i like to watch gay porn but i also like straight. but i would never date a guy i just would open sexually is that gay or is there a name for feeling like this?

Unless you have acquired that awesome job because of your degree...forget about your student loans if it interferes with you being able to afford eating food, living in apt or home, having a car or getting a bus pass, and basic healthcare like even going to a free health clinic if you need it. Wait till you can afford to pay on your student loan. Its a luxury to be able to pay it. Take Care of YOUR BASIC HUMAN NEEDS FIRST!!!

kylie or kendall
with all that, kendall seems like a dunce,

kim got old
kylie looks like she had major cosmetic surgery

I was in a drivers ed class where I saw a guy that seemed really cute. We shared a couple glances, but didn't talk once. I want to get to know him better but I don't want to seem like a stalker/freak. Any suggestions?

how do you get the speaker voice option?

so today we are scheduled for a family portrait. Yal’ll know the deal. Everybody takes a bath and dresses up like youre getting buried. Everybody but me is piling in the car. I calculatively decide to go back in, clandestinely smoke big hit of hydro before I go. My wife don’t know.
What happened next was humbling. My lighter kinda gilflerted and I ended up singing off the middle of my mustache. Boy did she shit when she saw the digital proofs, the first timd she noticed. LMAO. If you cant find humor in that you’re comatose. Peace. Good night.

i try to be a nice guy but im pretty i am naturally an ass*** and i dont know what to do about that. people dont like me and im beginning to not like myself. im not depressed or suicidal about it, i just want to learn to be better. and by better i dont mean fitter handsomer or richer or better at catering to others expectations, i just want to be a better person who is more thoughtful and considerate and less confrontational.

a 27 year old working woman from Asia, I am good with my work, I fall in the good books of everyone when it comes to work...I have a great life at office, the only thing that sucks is my personal life. I am in realtionship with my guy for 9 years now, he is the only guy i've dated and my mom hates me being with him...just because he belongs to another caste. His parents are okay with our relationship and I know he is the right guy for me, I love him a lot, same goes to my mum without saying that I adore her . My mum is verbally abusive to me when it comes to my relationship, my dad keeps silent all the time because he can't see my mum hurt. Everything I do in my life is compared to my relationship, I only get free time on weekends and they do not let me go out with my friends, even if I protest n go meet my friends or my guy they rob my mental piece with the fights they put up. My mum has lot of friends...she keeps hanging out with em for movies,malls etc( I don't know if it is hypocricy). According to her I am not a great daughter to her coz I'm in love with the guy she hates. I get her all the things she likes,celebrate her b'days, keep coddling her and telling her how much I love her everytime n I really do (she is also very sensitive). I do not know how to fix this. I have to be so cautious in everything I do around wrong move n she gets upset n starts assuming things about me, which hurts me and I finally end up fighting with her. I do not have a social life except office( I have to lie to her everytime I go out with my guy even after 9 yrs), I hate lying meanwhile I do not want to share the truth because she gets hurt and she hurts me in return being verbally abusive n making me feel guilty to such an extent that I am the worst daughter ever. I am so lost as to how to fix this without either one of us being hurt in the end.

I know there are many exhibitionists around but wonder how many are female like me. I quess strippers have to have a certain desire to expose themselves but I don't completely understand why I delibertley expose myself to men I sometimes know and many men I don't know. I have been dating and livng with my boyfriend for over three years and truly love him. If he ever found out how many men I have exosed myself to or how many guys have seen me naked he could never forgive me. I travel with my job mostly to east coast cities and have plenty of opurtunities. When I'm in Florida I visit mosly small stores where I try on bathing suits leaving either curtains or doors open enough for men to see me. I even do it in malls all over the east coast. I look around for men waiting for their wives or girlfriends in the stores near the dressing rooms. I prefer staying in motels rather than a hotel so I can easily leave curtains open and after years of travelling I know which are the best to bare myself. All I know is how much it excites me when I know a man is seeing me exposed especially if I am completely naked. It always arouses me to the point of masturbation and there have been numerous times over the years that guys have seen me satisfying myself. I'm 28 now and have been doing this since I was about 15. |At that time neighborhood boys and some male family friends saw me naked a few many times. Its like an obsession and I keep telling myself I'm going to stop doing it but never do stop. Why does it not embarrass me like it would most women. Its just the opposite when I know a guy is seeing me naked I get wet and so aroused it drives me crazy sometimes.

I am divorcing my wife because i believe she is a narcissistic woman and i have been under her control for a 4 years w/o knowing what a narcissist was. Has anyone ever been through this.

Know you wont see this. I hate everything. I cant trust anyone or anything. Its so confusing. Im always thinking of ways everyone will betray and fuc* me over. In fact i cant help but to think it. I cant get around them ethier. Its realy starting to confuse me. Because everytime you do something nice or invite me over or something. I just completely over think every detail as if im expecting you to fuc* me over. And i think i actualy do expect it. My mind. Its almost as if its trying to warn me. And its so confusing. I dont knoe ehat to believe. Im sure you where wondering why i said i dont even trust myself. Thats why. I have been having the happy then sad then furious moments randomly. Im happy one minute then the next for no reason im just depressed. Then by the end of the day ill be pissed at everyone and everything. Then ill just be confused. Ill just think and think about shit idk is even possible for people to fuc* me over like that. I mean i sometimes think that they all just pretend to like me because they feel bad for me. They pitty me because i have no one. They laugh at it even. Then... Then i think about you. At first i am relieved. "Finaly someone i trust". Then my mind starts to question me. "Is she realy trust worthy" it says. "Does she realy like you?"... Then i start imagining all these different things you screwing me over again and again and i was blinded by trust. Idk how much longer i can hold out on it :sob::sob::sob: i actualy hate myself. I dont knoe how els to feel about it. I cant even hold my own trust with the girl im pouring my soul into. Then i think about how if im wrong. Then ill lose her anyway. Shes gone. Poof. If i fuc* everything up because i was paraniod then... no more. Some days. It litterly hurts to think about it. I get a migrane. Like i did today.

My first thought on this is law agencies need to be able to see faces at first glance. What if the person behind the hijab wasn't really her... prison break strategy? What if she was hiding a razor under the hijab? Any number of weapons can be hidden under a hijab. If she is allowed any number of other inmates can "switch" religions to gain an added layer of confusion. There are gang related worries to think about as well.

Move or stay?
Today i sat in my easy chair , reading a book . I live on 12 acres on the back 3 surrounded by wood and a lake . While i read my back wall exploded tor a picture off my wall and then my wife china cabinet suddenly broke into a million pieces. Damn deer hunters ...guess i best move the decoys off the lawn huh?