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I am fascinated by teen pregnancy

What is wrong with me? I’m almost 40! I desire to get a teenage girl pregnant again very badly... I was 25 at the time and dating a freshman in college who had just turned 18... we started dating her senior year of high school when she was 17... when I was her teacher... she got pregnant spring of her freshman year and wanted to keep the baby but I made her get an abortion

The abortion was a terrible mistake and the guilt of the sin has haunted me ever since then as I know I am Doomed to go to Hell

But

A fetish and fascination with teen pregnancy has persisted for me ever since then... I had to leave teaching because I couldn’t keep my hands off the young girls and eventually I was afraid I’d get caught and sent to jail... I have a regular office job now and I haven’t put my hands on a teenage girl in 6 years... which is the statute of limitations in Arkansas ... but I still pine for young teenage girls even as I get older and older ... mainly because I want them pregnant

My teenage pregnancy fetish has festered and grown worse. I now actively desire for girls to get pregnant as teenagers - even though it’s always a moving goal post for me. but I know it’s an elusive and dangerous cycle

Is this normal? Is this ok for me to want?

Not just for myself - but I actively WANT other teenage girls to get pregnant!

Any teenage girl I see I think: wouldn’t it be better if she was pregnant!

When I see a young teenage girl who is pregnant I am floored and I adore her. It’s hard to know for sure, but I hope it didn’t look odd for a middle aged man like me (I’m nearly 40 but I look much much older due to hard living and hard drinking as a chronic alcoholic and a longtime heavy cigarette smoker, I could easily pass for 45 to 50+)

It seemed so peculiar for Me to love all pregnant teenage girls... but then I started reading about it online

In some way, isn’t older men with teenage girls what nature intended?isnt that what evolution pushed humanity towards?

For men to be older and established and women to be young teens with maximum fertility? I’m established now. I have a steady job and an apartment and a paid for car and all that. It’s evolutionary biology - I’m established and can provide for children - therefor it makes sense for a young fertile teenage girl to have children with me

Wasn’t It normal in the Bible?

Wasn’t it normal even until the late 1800s? I did some genealogy online, and found an ancestor of mine who married at 33, to a 16 year old girl and then when she died giving birth to their 3rd child in 1880, he remarried the next year at age 39 to a 15 year old girl and they had 6 more children

Apparently that was totally normal back then... everyone’s family is going to have instances of guys in their 30s or 40s marrying and having children with 15 year old girls ...

in fact it’s hard to find any records from the 1800s of men who weren’t having children with women between the ages of 15 to 19, at least the first children, and the women then had children throughout the rest of their twenties - but they always started with teenage pregnancy

So what changed? Why were we allowed to have children with teenage girls for hundreds or thousands of years

Now suddenly both evolution and the Bible are wrong?

is it weird that I just imagine situations that could never happen even though I'm an adult?

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I’d smoke a few cigarettes before school and then after school and I loved it. My freshman year of college in 1998, Instarted buying my own packs of cigarettes. I was still mostly a social smoker or sometimes a secretive smoker. Dating a smoker helped get me going.

I love that I actively tried to make myself smoke more cigarettes in 1999. I love that I’d make myself smoke a cigarette both before and after ever class and every morning when I’d wake up and every time I got in a car or out of a car or every time I waited on a bus or got off a bus or everytimr I walked tonclass, I made myself smoke another cigarette. I’d make myself smoke one and then two both before after every meal and then I got to where I wanted to keep smoking during meals.

I love that I committed in 1999, at the age of 19, to becoming a heavy smoker for the rest of my life. I love that I can’t even go thirty mi it’s without a cigarette. If I’m honest it’s closer to 15.

I hate that modern western society penalizes cigarette smokers so much. Like we are low class. I hate it.

I absolutely genuinely love that I have found a way to work from home mostly, or from my car, so I can smoke as much as I want all day long.

I hope all you other smokers out there like me can take hope that there are at least some of us out here keeping the faith.

I love smoking and everything about it!!

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